i say today is quite a bad day.

i have this sickly running nose

my weird feelings.

loves and misses.

SICK !



i miss him .

He meant everything to me

yes, until now

and whenever

hey blog.


fr a moment im so happy,
fr a moment ltr i found myself crying.
i don't understand me
nobody does actually la kn.
so obvious

this morning
im okay,
as usual
wan wan wan wan
den ltr,
was so hoping to meet him.
tapi tk menjadi, tkper.
and tonight,
airmata menitis
kenapa?
 im not telling
me to knw, you find out.

im so jealous
seeing him so happy
im so hurt
with his words for his . . . . . . .
so odd
for me to feel like this
nothing
at all seem right to me
nobody
i feel so lonely

so what?
so,
i feel so sad again
so disheartened again
so jealous again
so alone again
so shitty again
so cheap again
so discouraged again
so uselesss again

his words are so lovingly-wrong-person(ed)
if u knw wad i mean
ily, thats all i hv to say syg
maybe to you,its nothing or you're not in the wrong.
well it pains me
but wth la kn
im not even officially yours anymore
sometimes i really wonder why ily this much
why is it so difficult fr me to deny you

i still rmb,
almost two yrs ago
you were so scared if i had somebody else
you were th one always worried th one always telling me u luv me without a miss
now its the reverse

how terrible im feeling..

TODAY!



haha.

i can say i am very happy.

(:

i go meet my well-missed dear.

heee

I say he really make my day babe.

Even if its just for awhile.

I just hoped that could last all dayyyyyy!

haha :D

I wanna be in that warm arms of yours, Mmmm..!

(:   I wanna be with you mydearr!

i want to measure by how many inches has your 'chest' grown.

HAHAAA

syg irly.

and i am always here for you.

my arms are wide open for you bi

ty ayg for that long longgg hug,

ty ayg for that lovely touch of your lips,

ty ayg for that sweet smile of yours.

i love you syazwan

:]

11:58pm.



Every night since, i sit up.
Teary eyes, thinking of you..
I'm here, your there
I'm nvr used to being so far away from you
like this.

Maybe this decision was a mistake.
You probably don't care what I have to say.
But it's been heavy on my mind for awhile now.
Guess I'm trying to clear some mental space.
I would love to talk to you in person.
But I understand why that can't be.
I'll leave you alone for good I promise.
If you answer this one question for me.
I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?
I know what we have is dead and gone.
Too many times I asked.
And I don't mean to interrupt your life.
I just wonder do I ever cross your mind?

abg says i nd a break,
hes right.
so whr to start?
idk how to.
idk any directions anymoreee
haiyo.
i really really miss him.
i miss your piggy-backs, den u'll run arounddd wit me on your back.

ANIS STOP IT!

so how, how, HOW?
x(




it took me alot of time to write this hort thing.
it's 12:41pm.
so goodnight.